Reading

Today is the 1st day of my 10th week of pregnancy and I have already read 3 books.

The first one that I started was "What to Expect When You're Expecting". This was very informational but not a very "fun" read. I technically haven't finished this one yet. I haven't read the labor and delivery section. I have 30 weeks to go before that time comes so I figured I would give it some time before I dove into that.

The second one was "The Girlfriend's Guide to Pregnancy". This one was more "fun" than the 1st. This one is written by a older woman who has given birth to 4 children. The book is written from information she has gathered through her own experiences and from other women who have given birth rather than by "boring" medical professionals.

The third one (and my FAVORITE) so far was "Belly Laughs" by Jenny McCarthy. It was a really short book compared to the first 2 but so much better. I read this one in about 2 days and I was stretching it out. She gives you the real scoop as to what is going to happen. And it is incredibly funny. This is a must read whether you are pregnant or not. William even got a kick out of some of the stuff in this one.

Due Date

Jan. 27th, 2010

I haven't posted it until now because my doc. didn't give me one until my last ultrasound. We found out we were expecting pretty early, at about 5 weeks, so he wanted to wait until he could measure everything a little better. Last week, 06/11, I saw the heartbeat for the 1st time. We couldn't hear it yet but I did see the little flicker.
So as of today I am 8 weeks prego. We have a long way to go and it seems like a lifetime away. At least we have plenty of time to prepare for our little one. We have tons to do and I am a huge procrastinator!

Exhaustion & Mood Swings

Exhaustion
I have never in my life been as tired as I have been these last few days. Just getting out and bed and getting ready for work wears me out so much I feel like I need a nap before working an 8 hour day. 2 months ago I could work 10 or 11 hours, come home, cook and clean, relax for a bit, and still have to force myself to go to bed at 10 so I could function the next day. Those days are OVER, for a while at least. Every night last week I was in bed and asleep by 9. I used to go to bed at 10, read for about 30 minutes or so, and then still have a hard time falling asleep. Now I can't get through 1 page of a book before I pass out.
Last night was the worst. I had a rough day which I am sure contributed to my exhaustion. At 8:30 I couldn't stay awake any longer. I went to bed and read half of a chapter of "Girlfriend's Guide to Pregnancy" and was out. I woke up at 6 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. I mean, I had been in bed since 8:30 the night before. Probably time to get up. Ha, think twice. I got on the couch to watch some TV so I wouldn't make to much noise, trying to let William get a few more hours of sleep. By 6:30 I was asleep again. My bladder and empty stomach woke me up at 9. Off to Bojangles I went. Yum! You will never guess this one..... I was back asleep at 11 this morning and finally got up for the day at noon. I should feel more energized than ever but I am fighting the urge to take another nap.
I also may not be getting a restful nights sleep due to this uncontrollable overactive bladder that has taken up residence in my body. I pee ALL THE TIME. I go right before I get into bed, again about 12 to 1, then again about 3 to 4. When I get up between 6 or 7 for the day I run straight for the bathroom AGAIN. I have never been one to get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom. Up until pregnancy my body has always dealt with it long enough for me to get how ever much sleep I wanted.

Mood Swings
I want to start off with an apology to my wonderful husband and anyone who comes into contact with me within the next 34 weeks. Sorry ya'll. I will get better. :)
I am off my meds so I am sure that has something to do with all this.
I go from being on top of the world to totally pissed off feeling like I won't make it through the next 10 minutes to crying my eyes out. Nothing has to happen for me to get mad, happy, or upset. I am hoping this will get better over time or that I will learn how to deal with all these changes a little better. I feel a little immortal these days with all these changes going on. On top of that I am completely terrified now that the reality of me being responsible for another human being for the rest of my life has set it. But I already love this little one more than anything in this world. And he/she has already become the center of my world. I eat, sleep, and breath baby. Making a little time for Dada Peacock. :)

Update

Nothing to exciting to report just yet. Dr. Marzbani did confirm that we are pregnant. They took some blood to determine my HCG levels. Depending on the test results I will go in for my first OB appointment next week or the week after. He did an external ultra sound but its still a little to early to see anything. Hopefully next time.
William is already showing how amazing he can be. He is getting a little protective of me. :). He is weary of me touching the cats AND he has done this dishes for 2 nights in a row. I think I can live with this! I am falling more and more in love with him everyday. He has already mastered being an amazing husband and I am positive he will be an amazing dad.

Symptoms as of 05/27/2009

Nothing to extreme yet.
For the past 3 to 7 days:
Tender breasts
Slight abdominal cramping
Frequent urination
Occasional Bojangles cravings

Hoping good ole Morning Sickness never shows her face.

Expecting!

On Monday, May 25, 2009 at 4pm my life changed forever. I FINALLY got a positive pregnancy test result. I have been dreaming of this day for as long as I can remember. I had always imagined what this moment would be like. It was NOTHING like I imagined. I was thrilled but all of a sudden I felt extremely overwhelmed and my mind started racing. All I could think was, "We have so much to do." "Can we really afford this?" "What do we do now?" "I need a new car." "Stop smoking, NOW." "Should I tell William now, or wait until the doctor confirms it?" And so on and so on. All the while I am reading the instructions to the HPT over and over again as if it takes a rocket scientist to work these things. Finally, after what seems like a lifetime in the bathroom with my mind racing, I say aloud for the first time ever "I am pregnant."
I am a woman so I can't keep my mouth shut about to much of anything for very long so of course I run to the office to tell William our news. He is sitting there peaceful, content, childless, with no worries in sight, and I blurt out, "We're pregnant." At first I think he was shocked. We were trying to get pregnant so we knew if was coming but I don't think you are ever truly ready for that moment. He takes a breath and says to me, "Damn Right". :) I love him so!
Tomorrow, 05/28/2009 I go for my first appointment since becoming pregnant. It's not my first OB appointment but they will confirm for us that we are indeed expecting. In some ways I need this confirmation from the doctor. I don't "feel" pregnant. I am sure at 5 weeks most women don't. I always envisioned knowing and feeling different once it happened. That's not the case but I am sure that will change very soon.
Tomorrow they will start to ween me off my anti-depressants which scares the hell out of me. They have made life so much easier. Hopefully the joy of being pregnant will be enough to keep my emotions in check for the next 9+ months.