Exhaustion
I have never in my life been as tired as I have been these last few days. Just getting out and bed and getting ready for work wears me out so much I feel like I need a nap before working an 8 hour day. 2 months ago I could work 10 or 11 hours, come home, cook and clean, relax for a bit, and still have to force myself to go to bed at 10 so I could function the next day. Those days are OVER, for a while at least. Every night last week I was in bed and asleep by 9. I used to go to bed at 10, read for about 30 minutes or so, and then still have a hard time falling asleep. Now I can't get through 1 page of a book before I pass out.
Last night was the worst. I had a rough day which I am sure contributed to my exhaustion. At 8:30 I couldn't stay awake any longer. I went to bed and read half of a chapter of "Girlfriend's Guide to Pregnancy" and was out. I woke up at 6 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. I mean, I had been in bed since 8:30 the night before. Probably time to get up. Ha, think twice. I got on the couch to watch some TV so I wouldn't make to much noise, trying to let William get a few more hours of sleep. By 6:30 I was asleep again. My bladder and empty stomach woke me up at 9. Off to Bojangles I went. Yum! You will never guess this one..... I was back asleep at 11 this morning and finally got up for the day at noon. I should feel more energized than ever but I am fighting the urge to take another nap.
I also may not be getting a restful nights sleep due to this uncontrollable overactive bladder that has taken up residence in my body. I pee ALL THE TIME. I go right before I get into bed, again about 12 to 1, then again about 3 to 4. When I get up between 6 or 7 for the day I run straight for the bathroom AGAIN. I have never been one to get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom. Up until pregnancy my body has always dealt with it long enough for me to get how ever much sleep I wanted.
Mood Swings
I want to start off with an apology to my wonderful husband and anyone who comes into contact with me within the next 34 weeks. Sorry ya'll. I will get better. :)
I am off my meds so I am sure that has something to do with all this.
I go from being on top of the world to totally pissed off feeling like I won't make it through the next 10 minutes to crying my eyes out. Nothing has to happen for me to get mad, happy, or upset. I am hoping this will get better over time or that I will learn how to deal with all these changes a little better. I feel a little immortal these days with all these changes going on. On top of that I am completely terrified now that the reality of me being responsible for another human being for the rest of my life has set it. But I already love this little one more than anything in this world. And he/she has already become the center of my world. I eat, sleep, and breath baby. Making a little time for Dada Peacock. :)